The First Will Be Last

   I write this first blog entry,  which will be the last entry in the blog.  Inconvenient when trying to tell a long narrative.  Not that I am an expert at creating narratives.  The horror story I am about to tell comes with in's and out's, twitches and turns, unbelievable to those who are ignorant about such matters.  Like tossing out a math problem to someone who has no knowledge of numbers.  Cognizant Dissonance hit me pretty hard during this, but then I was told these things without the distance of you, who are reading a book.  I was accused with angry words of killing people, of fighting in a race war.   A shock to me that such things could even exist in this age...  I lived in a integrated neighborhood, no signs of hate there.  One neighbor I stupidly got mad at.  One day I did not wear my glasses, stared at him, and he noticed.  Taking this as rude as it would be.  Had I known who he was I would not have done this.  NEVER ONCE DID I THINK I NEEDED TO EXPLAIN MYSELF TO NOT ONE OF YOU...

I am going to be referring to a book, which I will like to, which you can access for free, which was written after I was brainwashed.  I also offer another from before.  I do not know if the world cares or gets this or what the fuck.  I just know that if those who control Hollywood hate me so much, though they obviously know who is at fault and that it was not me.  Fucking blame me, let the victimizers go.  You humans do this on the level of your law all the time now.

I do not want people taking any advice from me when they know better.  For God's sake there has to be checks and balances.